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[02 Mar 2006|04:11pm] |
okay so i am so so sorry to any new girls that have just joined recently, but i need to close down this site. not forever just for a few weeks. i started this community when i had no time for anything or anyone for that matter and now that i have a lot of time on my hands i'd LOVE to restart this community. i'm deleting all of the old entries and starting over completely. i would just move the community but i'm in love with this name and i'd rather not just throw it away when i can just start over. again i am sorry if you just joined but i just recently wanted to really get this going strong again. i'll have it up and running asap.
erin
p.s my new lj is ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) introspectionn feel free to add me.
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| WE'RE CLOSING FOR A FEW DAYS! |
[02 Mar 2006|03:53pm] |
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okay so heres the deal everyone who has been posting in here since i've been gone, i'm going to close down the site. just for a little while so i can get it back up and running. i'm deleting all of the entries and i will probably make a new layout. i'm not closing this for good. i started this community at a point in my life when i simply had no time to but now i'm back on track and i'd like to fix up this community a lot. so if you check back here and this is the only entry you see... that is why. thats all. thank you! and please please please come back!
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[13 Jun 2005|05:59pm] |
MOVED!!!!!
MOVED!!!!!
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MOVED!!!!!
moved to ; reach_the_shore
ADD ME!!!!!
ADD ME!!!!!
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ADD ME!!!!!
ADD ME!!!!!
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[13 Jun 2005|03:07pm] |
today was boring.. cried first block when i didnt know i was sad till after mrs kaufman read some stuff to me and erica. when i got home sephora imed me and aw i was happy again lol shes cute. i had my away message up cuz i was going to eat but when i came back i saw her IM and it made me smile. i love getting messages while im away even if its just to say hi. i dont feel like updating.. i have nothing to really say. my birthdays friday alyssas is tomorrow.. should be coo'....
erin
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[11 Jun 2005|07:29pm] |
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for starters im wicked mad at tiffany ]; last night i asked her and caitlin if they'd come with me to get a piercing tomorrow (today) and they said okay.so today comes and i ask my dad and he says sure and as far as i know tiffanys going but then eddy calls... and she makes plans with him. she didnt tell me or caitlin we both thought eddy was coming to her house but no shes like who said he was coming here.. i was like uh.... i cant leave. well anyway fastforward she left me at her house with her mom sister and niece while she ditched me for eddy. EFFED UP! she just met him like monday and shes known me like 4 years. even caitlin said it was fucked up. so my dads got there after i was at her house chilin with her mom sister and the baby and he was even mad at her lol.well my dad said hed take me to get my lip pierced so i called my mom and told her and she freaked out saying ima look like a freak.. lmfao yeah a freak okay and so i was like look mom im getting it done so just let me go. and i hung up cuz she wouldnt shut upshe called back and said if i come home with my lip pierced tomorrow im "DONE shes not giving me rides anymore ( no loss there she drives wicked slow ) shes not giving me my child support money and she said im grounded... if im grounded for getting a piercing... then god i wonder what bad things i can do and not get grounded. if she thinks im grounded next weekend shes crazy lmfao my birthday after school i just wont go home its as easy as that. shes overreacting big time ITS A FUCKING PIERCING ITS NOT LIKE I COMMITTED A CRIME. she judges way too much. my dad said he doesnt care if my moms mad at him cuz i do good in school ( besides algebra ) i dont get into trouble i dont do drugs IM A GOOD KID! he did say as soon as i fuck up though he will rip my lip ring out. even though he wont i know what hes saying hes saying that if i fuck up im not gonna have the stuff i have now.i love my dad so much [; hes the best.riss and i havent been talking. its driving me insane. i feel like i did something wrong but i definately didnt. shes been being such a bitch to me she doesnt call when she says shes gonna and she doesnt answer when i call her. it makes me sad but w/e i dont really have anything else to update about so bye
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| for friday |
[11 Jun 2005|06:31pm] |
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SOMEONE GET ME THE SPILL CANVAS CD for my birthday... ill love you forever and ever and ever and ever!
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[02 Jun 2005|04:48pm] |
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im failing algebra 1b.... i CANT FAIL! i need to get my grade up ]; i need extra help.. anyone good at math!? please help me im begging you
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[01 Jun 2005|03:07pm] |
chilling at the mall with the homies. erica and i are eating mac and cheese even though im on an ALL WATER diet lmfao uhm yeah i love erica nutferbrownarro and yeah... ur ugly kthnx
bye
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| fuck all those nights i moaned real loud fuck it i faked it aren't you proud ;D |
[29 May 2005|10:17am] |
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today.. im going to hang out with my mom! how.. awesomely coo'. were going to the movies doing a little shopping and then were going out to eat uhm... yesturday was so fucking boring. i listened to my mae cd all day and night. i think im seriously in love with their cd.. it makes my heart skip beats! no word of a lie. my ears dont hurt much anymore im glad i can get new gauges today though the ones i have bug the hell out of me.... uhm..... i need to get birthday presents.. EFF ALL OF YOU FOR HAVING YOUR BIRTHDAYS LIKE 2 DAYS APPART DO I LOOK LIKE IM MADE OF MONEY! lol j/k i love you guys! i already know what im getting one of you XD so feel special nigguh. uhm yeah.. im leaving here soon i guess. i was playing my keyboard this morning and i wrote an awesome song that goes with this cool background track on my keypad it made me happy i really dont feel like updating i think its a waste of time cuz no one ever comments even though now people wil to prove they read this but yeah still everyone else gets comments on ever entry and look at my entrys.. only the sad ones get comments GHETTO! kbye
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[28 May 2005|08:12pm] |
if it wasnt for me having the new MAE cd i think id be a very friggen stressed out person... new mae owns my heart more than anyone!
p.s im sad /;
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[27 May 2005|04:01pm] |
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i havent updated in A WICKED LONG TIME. nothing special has happened went to youth pride last saturday WICKED FUN! [; uh huh school has sucked. i love my friends. im wearing jordan martini's shirt SHH DONT TELL HIM. im going to hang out with tiff for the first time in like 3 weeks. i can get free coffee at dunkin donuts sometimes. kayla just got grounded and now tylers not coming to the mall with us.. GAY they're walking here now. im talking to rissa shes so cute [; mhm uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh thats like it im gonna shut up now i dont really have much to say so yeah bye,
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[20 May 2005|10:26pm] |
yeah... im chilling with erica and mel... and thats all that matters cuz were cool.. and tomorrow is youth pride... and were gonna be even more cool.. and yeah...
today the plays were fun...
k bye
p.s your gay
kthnx
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[16 May 2005|05:12pm] |
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im so sorry i hurt you... i deserve to just drop dead
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[10 May 2005|10:35am] |
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you know what sucks? being me right now for various reasons
1. i have tissues shoved up my nose cuz it keeps running
2. i cant stop thinking about a stupid bitch who broke my heart
3. my dads mad at me for staying home
4. i want a girlfriend or someone to cuddle with ATLEAST
5. im really hungry and i dont feel like cooking
6. im bored out of my mind
7. i feel ugly feel i AM ugly
8. i cant seem to do anything right
9. im way too nice to people who suck at life
10. im really cold
11. no one even reads my journal so no one is gonna comment
12. i still dont have enough money for florida
13. i wish someone would want me
14. im jealous of more than half of my friends for having relationships
15. i have a problem with complaining and self pitty
16. i could honestly make this list go on forever
but im stopping with
17. i just wasted 5 mintues of my time on typing someone NO ONE will read or comment on unless they feel that since i said this.. they have to comment when in reality no one ever comments i mean just look at my older entries..
BLOW ME
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[05 May 2005|03:55pm] |
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im sitting here listening to the insturmental version of the song Kissing You from the movie romeo and juliet.. im a sucker for love stories and sweet love songs like that one.. yeah sure the one im listening to on repeat might i add has no words but its so soothing and sweet.. that it doesnt even need words. all day ive had a different outlook on everything and ive felt something missing.. though ive felt that "missing" something for awhile now theres just something different about the way i feel right now. i woke up feeling alone but content.. i wanted someone there with me so bad.. i wanted to wake up and have someone right there to smile at and kiss their forhead to wake them up..i got dressed tried calling riss and then i just kinda sat and wathced my goldfish.. i thought he must be pretty lonely too and hell ive got it better than him! he sits in a small ass tank all day by himself with nothing to do.. poor little guy.. im gonna buy another fish to put in there with him.. i mean i feel so bad that there i was sitting there complaining about how im lonely and hes stuck in a little confined space with no one. i felt selfish.. call me weird but like i said my outlook on everything was different today.. well anyway went to go get mel went to school..i kept wanting to just throw my arms around someone ANYONE but i didnt. its like my mind was telling me to hug people but my body just wouldnt go through with it. i dont even know who exactly was on my mind but a select few sure were there at some point. i went on with the day feeling so alone and selfish not only selfish cuz of the whole fish thing but just selfish that ive been complaining about everything much like i always do.. i complain about other peoples relationships because im jealous i dont have one of my own ugh it sucks..its at the point where i hate seeing couples idk i get wicked sad with the whole PDA thing when i cant show PDA with someone. there i go complaining again but i cant help it /; i wish i was in love with someone who is in love with me back ]; im just not that lucky.. i walked the track in p.e today.. the weather is getting so nice.. but all it did is make me think more.. about how i wanna hold hands and take long walks.. conveniently when the wind blew from one part of the track it smelt like ocean water.. i closed my eyes and imagined walking on the beach holding hands with someone and i actually felt good until i opened my eyes again and realized i was just imagining it /; on the way home i didnt really do much of anything.. not even think i just walked.. walked and walked until i got here.. and i decided to type out how im feeling i guess thats it.. /; i really wish i felt loved... but i dont
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[01 May 2005|09:54am] |
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i got in a big ass fight with my mom cuz i said that if we get my grandmas house i wanna live with my dad while im in school.. i mean tell me if this makes sense everyone i really need to know if im in the wrong or my moms just mad
okay my grandma is moving in with my aunt so my moms gonna try to see if she can just move into her house.. my grandmas house one needs so much work to it cuz its wicked old fashioned and two its in another city... id be alone there like ALL THE TIME! my mom works ya know? so if i wanna hang out with my friends during the week i cant.. cuz im NOT gonna make my dad give me rides everywhere like i already do. if i move there my moms not gonna give me rides to fall river everyday but if i stay in fall river i can just walk or something.. or get rides from my friends cuz i mean i live near half of them.. i think it would be more convenient if i just stay at my dads while im in school.. and ill go to my moms house on weekends and ill go there in the summer.. my mom flipped out on that idea and was all "OH GEE THANKS ILL JUST BE ALONE ALL THE TIME" first of all.. my brother DOESNT have a job so hes there and ITS NOT MY FAULT YOU LEFT MY DAD WHO TREATED YOU BETTER THAN EVER FOR A LOW LIFE ALCOHOLIC ( i didnt say the end of that but i did say the whole my brothers there thing ) and she was still like w/e erin w/e you wanna go go if your not happy with living with me.. i never even said i wasnt happy living with her.. i love living with my mom.. i love my mom! no matter how much she pisses me off and how bad she treats me compared to my brothers i still love her.. it pissed me off that she would even say that.. i mean does she think its easy for my dad to only see me after school for like an hour where we dont really do anything and then just on saturday? id stay with my mom friday until sunday and id go there in the summer.. but no my mom doesnt like that idea.. tell me is it more convenient to just live with my dad.. i could walk to school and still hang out with my friends everyday..? someone fill me in if im in the wrong please id like to know if i am.. my moms crazy sometimes /; thats really all so...
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i love bambi 4 ever [;
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my uncle died this morning.. my life never goes right.. i knew someone was going to die.. everytime someone in my family or someone im close to dies..i smell flowers... i dont know if you remember erica but.. i was with you and mike walking through the halls it was when i went to starr with both of you.. and i was like someones gonna die.. well someone did.. my uncle.. i keep crying on and off.. his wakes tuesday night and so wednesday i wont be at school ill be at his funeral.. ]; im sad... i need my friends right now ];
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[22 Apr 2005|10:25am] |
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What would you say if I asked you not to go
To forget everyone, forget everything and start over with me
Would you take my hand and never let me go
Promise me you'll never let me go
And now the stars aren't out tonight,
But neither are we to look up at them
Why does hello feel like goodbye?
These memories can't replace,
These wishes I wished and dreams I chased
Take this broken heart and make it right
I feel like I lost everything when you're gone
Left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
I thought you should know,
You're not making this easy
I never thought I'd be the one to say
Please don't, well please don't leave me
I feel like I lost everything when you're gone
Left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
I thought you should know,
You're not making this easy
You're not making this easy (easy, easy, easy...)
Take my hand and never let me go,
Take my hand and never let me go,
Promise me...
You'll never let go
You'll never let go
You'll never let go
You'll never let go
Make this last forever
I feel like I lost everything when you're gone
Left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
I thought you should know, you're not making this easy
You're not making this easy
You're not making this easy
You're not making this easy
You're not making this easy
I'll fall asleep tonight, 'cause that brings me closer to you
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we got married